Does This Turn You On?
Am I Gay?
I do get this question a lot these days. Thought maybe it was just a passing fetish, to have doubt about your own sexuality so late in life. I do believe this is here to stay, although I know it has been a question on plenty of male minds, it seems to be an overwhelming question once in your early 30’s and beyond. This is just one of the many calls that I get.
Sophia: Hello this is Sophia how may I be of service today?
Caller: Well Sophia I have a question for you, I am a little embarrassed but will ask anyway.
Sophia: Sure go right ahead, I am a good listener, and I won’t judge promise.
Caller: Well I have been having some thoughts lately that include the male organ.
Sophia: Your saying you have been fantasizing about penis?
Caller: Yes, and not in a “I wish mine was that size” kind of way. I have been thinking that I want to experience having cock in my mouth. I have been sucking on toys and when my girlfriend sucks my cock I try to visualize as if I were doing it. Am I Gay?
Sophia: Well do you still love a women in the biblical sense? *giggles* Yes this makes me giggle…
Caller: Yes! Very much so, that’s why I’m calling you and not asking one of my buddies…that could be awkward if you know what I mean.
Sophia: OK So you have been thinking that maybe you would want to experience cock sucking on your own, or always with a female partner?
Caller: Maybe both, does that make me Gay?
Sophia: Well I am just going to give you my opinion, I’m not a therapist, but I have been in the phone sex business for a while.( I could be a sex therapist LOL) I think if you have a phallic obsession you very well may not be gay, just wanting to experience something that is considered taboo by most heterosexual males. You know something that is thought about but maybe not acted on. If you have a passion and a desire to be in a loving, caring intimate relationship, well then I would say you may be Gay. Could be that you are bi-sexual. We can explore that subject the next time you call.
Caller: Oh wow, really? Because I thought that even thinking about another man’s penis meant that I am almost certainly Gay.
Sophia: Actually I like to think we don’t need to identify with either or, I am all about what feels good in the moment. One day I might like the light touch of a women, the next it could be totally cock hunger. I think you should take your time and figure out whether you are indeed cock obsessed or just maybe needing a little extra spark to ignite buried sexual fire. Sometimes it can be just that simple. The need to have something make you feel like you did with your very first blowjob or sexual experience.
Caller: Oh good, now that we got that out of the way, will you guide me on giving the most delicious blow-job ever?
Sophia: But of course, close your eyes and visualize the cock of your dreams……
Not going into full detail of the rest of the conversation, let’s just say he was very satisfied. We also ended our conversation with him feeling better about not being the only man on the planet to want to discuss this type of fantasy. If you have similar questions or needs, please contact me so that we can discuss them in detail. Take a little time out for yourself out of the rat race and the humdrum of everyday business and life, let’s explore what turns you on. Till the next time lovers!
*kisses*
Empress Sophia
Ms Sophia…love the post. I too have found that as I have gotten older that I have fantasies of sucking on a phallic object. Usually though, they are around sucking on the mistresses strap-on. I have always thought that this was part of my desire to be a slut and the idea of the role reversal …of me sucking on her with a strap-on…was just part of the desire to be her bitch. I love your term…phallic obsession…and this is what I think I have. But I just hope that it’s not the first step to some deeper, my hidden desire’s to be tied down and lead down the path to actually wanting to suck on another mans cock some day in the future. The reason I say this is that 5 years ago I had no desire to suck on a strap-on. But now, once the mistress gets me on the edge…to tat point where all I want to do is release…and wow…she has me begging and pleading to gobble gobble her lovely strap-on.
I love writing this post PB, I am doing a little more research on “phallic obsessions” before my next installment. I look forward to hearing more feedback from you. Your story is of the progression is fascinating, would love to hear more.
Sophia xoxo
Excellent post! I am obsessed with sucking cock and have turned the whole matter over to Mistress Violet, who is now forcing me to read other LDW mistresses’ posts about fellatio and comment on them. We are working up to me actually doing it, though I may well chicken out. Anyhow, your post was very well-written and articulate, plus it gave me a boner. Thanks!